So I know I have been MIA for a long while but I just feel as though I need to get this out. I have been holding it in for a long time. I was told once that my dating life has not been going so great because I am afraid to get hurt so I don't put myself out there. This may be because EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. I do put myself in a vulnerable position I end up getting hurt or somebody says something that make me feel like I am an idiot. So I try not to put myself in those situations and tend to curl into myself and just get through life.
It is the hardest thing to do to tell somebody your darkest secrets and fears to (even offer something very personal) and then have them just cut you out of their life. I want this person to be happy. I still care for this person and pray everyday that they get everything they want.
And I know this is the easy way out, not telling these people this but I am not one that is big on confrontations. But this is my way of letting people know how I am feeling and helping me get through this. Maybe I will do it more often than once a year!
